Hugh
I wish you, and everyone else in our position of having lost our most loved one, every hope of future contentment - for want of a better word.
For my own part, Veronica has now been gone for just over 14 months - and every day is absolutely, bloody awful. I'm not living, just existing. Today should have been our 32nd anniversary. Instead, it is the second one without her. At least last year, the first one, I still had our little dog - now even she has been taken from me and I am utterly alone. I don't see suicide as an option - just pointless - but if I believed in an after life and the hope of meeting my loved ones again, it would definitely be on the agenda.
Mike