Yellowbird, my own experience was that a lot of things about life altered when my O/H was ill, as you say things you couldn't seem to do while there were other things to take care of. Don't be too concerned that you have lost it, carry on with the current pattern which needs your participation at the moment. You will probably find it will return when the time is right, and you are less preoccupied. Meanwhile my thoughts are very much with you, as I am sure are the thoughts of others too. We hope you feel supported.